just got back from Dad & Carol’s… we had a great time, and towards the end of the night, religion came up. i said that even though fundamentalists are CRAZY, i at least respect their consistency. these days, most “religious” people pick and choose what they want from the bible, and that’s a turn-off to me. anyway, i said that i don’t think you need to believe in god to know right from wrong and have purpose in life. Papa said that he loves me anyway.
papa’s a great, old man, and there’s no reason for me to argue with him. i just felt like… you love me ANYway? despite something? it rubbed me the wrong way a little bit. not enough to say anything, but i didn’t say “i love you too, despite your irrational belief in an imaginary friend who keeps tally of everything you do”.
eh. home with Mo. onwards.
Lindsay said,
April 6, 2009 at 5:51 am
It’s funny. I have two responses to this. First, the one I feel less attached to:
Baby, parents are as misguided in their expressions as …well, we are. I doubt that your pops thought as clearly about the meaning behind his words, namely making you feel flawed in a way that were he asked directly, he wouldn’t say you are. He would say, What the hell does it matter what she believes in, she is my girl! Sheeeit.
And another thought…a selfish one? In a time where my pops has been accused of having no feeling in his “I love you”s when he says them to me…I dunno. It’s cool having one that means it, even if he’s dopey in delivery.
AND, what I first thought in reading your entry…it was ….GAWD dude. Look at the intelligent, fun, thinking lady in front of you. She is part of you. Whatever she thinks and feels about your world or the world around her….take her in. Isn’t she awesome!? Yeah she is. So shut up. Hug her, and curb that caveat shit.
Just thoughts at 3:45am. Love you.
XO
irium said,
April 6, 2009 at 9:16 pm
that’s the truth – i failed to mention that his love is appreciated, that’s for sure. i’ve never gone without love from my parents and from this old, wonderful grandpa, and omitting my appreciation for that was unintentional, that’s for sure.
i love your 3:45am thoughts. and your 7:06pm thoughts. and all the ones in-between.
xoxox.